Quizzes and Neil and The Wrong Season-al Depression

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Trying the Readers' Digest style today since this is mostly complaining . . .

Tiffany just left a couple hours ago (I woke up in time to see her off, and then went back to sleep, lol . . . ). I am sore-- from tubing and from monthliness . . .

So now it's back to sitting around the house again, lol :-P at least the weekends will be nice-- they're looking to be so, anyway-- up at the lake. Though I will get sick of the lake, too, when I am up there full-time and without workable Internet. I enjoy the lake, but I just can't be always active, always doing lake stuff, all day, everyday-- which Neil has a hell of a time understanding when I am watching him up there, as Neil is always, always, always doing something, and he always wants me to do it with him, and then tells my parents if I don't and they get mad at me. It's quite positively annoying, actually; he doesn't need me, but, since I'm there, and he knows he can manipulate around me like that, he does. I mean, the entire school year, he comes home, he jumps on the trampoline, he plays basketball and baseball by himself. I'm all willing to throw a ball around with him for a couple hours, but then he pulls ridiculous crap like, "Throw this can of soda (oh no, have I lost "pop?") into the lake and I'll go get it over and over again, you know, for the next three or five hours while I splash you over and over again, and, no, you're not actually allowed to come in." He picks precisely what I don't want to do. I guess it's mostly because we have vastly, grossly dissimilar interests, so maybe there really is no middle ground, but, sheesh, you'd think he'd at least look for some instead of just being a little tyrant?

I'm beginning to feel as if I am slipping into my summer hermit-ness. It does, arguably, make the summer go faster, but it's usually pretty damn detrimental come the fall. I just feel no motivation to go out and be social; I know I can go out and call people and get plenty of stuff together to do (all nearly most all of the time, in the world!), but I just feel so internally lazy about organizing these things. This is also a problem, as I have plenty of social stuff in plans that I need to organize by the end of the summer. I know why all of this is; for every summer of my whole life until I had a car, my family basically just *escaped* up to the lake, and I had no social interaction with anybody from my home environment for months-- just my family and the neighbors and the people I've known all my life from the lake, who are of a separate social sphere of my life from my school, activities, hometown, etc . . . Yet even on the Internet I get lazy; I just feel disconnected, and stop commented as frequently on people's journals or in my communities or respond to people's wall comments on Facebook, and just . . . cease to exist, socially, or something, in all realms. There are periods of days where I don't talk to anybody at all, except my family for a few hours, which, after the vast social environment of college, seems like some refined form of socially-depriving torture (since when did I become an extrovert?). It's like seasonal depression, only it isn't in the right season . . .

( . . . and I can tell just by the way I feel this is the case, even as Tiffany has been here and I have been social . . . just in a weird, sort of distant way, which makes me feel terrible . . . )

I should go catch up on my RPing in some of my communities and see if Alice wants to go for a walk again tonight, if it's not storming . . .

Edit (1:01 pm): Comments to Kidnapping Video on YouTube:
shannon6155 (8 hours ago): Oooo.. were watching you. C'mon. lol... knowone helped that girl cause she was a geek..
MurasakiNeko (5 minutes ago): Yeah, I bet she was. I bet she studies a weird language like Japanese and is ridiculously obsessed with Harry Potter. Maybe she actually knows how to spell "no one." What a whackjob.

Mmm, bitchplease . . .

Quizzes and Neil and The Wrong Season-al Depression

( Quiz Time )

Trying the Readers' Digest style today since this is mostly complaining . . .

Tiffany just left a couple hours ago (I woke up in time to see her off, and then went back to sleep, lol . . . ). I am sore-- from tubing and from monthliness . . .

So now it's back to sitting around the house again, lol :-P at least the weekends will be nice-- they're looking to be so, anyway-- up at the lake. Though I will get sick of the lake, too, when I am up there full-time and without workable Internet. I enjoy the lake, but I just can't be always active, always doing lake stuff, all day, everyday-- which Neil has a hell of a time understanding when I am watching him up there, as Neil is always, always, always doing something, and he always wants me to do it with him, and then tells my parents if I don't and they get mad at me. It's quite positively annoying, actually; he doesn't need me, but, since I'm there, and he knows he can manipulate around me like that, he does. I mean, the entire school year, he comes home, he jumps on the trampoline, he plays basketball and baseball by himself. I'm all willing to throw a ball around with him for a couple hours, but then he pulls ridiculous crap like, "Throw this can of soda (oh no, have I lost "pop?") into the lake and I'll go get it over and over again, you know, for the next three or five hours while I splash you over and over again, and, no, you're not actually allowed to come in." He picks precisely what I don't want to do. I guess it's mostly because we have vastly, grossly dissimilar interests, so maybe there really is no middle ground, but, sheesh, you'd think he'd at least look for some instead of just being a little tyrant?

I'm beginning to feel as if I am slipping into my summer hermit-ness. It does, arguably, make the summer go faster, but it's usually pretty damn detrimental come the fall. I just feel no motivation to go out and be social; I know I can go out and call people and get plenty of stuff together to do (all nearly most all of the time, in the world!), but I just feel so internally lazy about organizing these things. This is also a problem, as I have plenty of social stuff in plans that I need to organize by the end of the summer. I know why all of this is; for every summer of my whole life until I had a car, my family basically just *escaped* up to the lake, and I had no social interaction with anybody from my home environment for months-- just my family and the neighbors and the people I've known all my life from the lake, who are of a separate social sphere of my life from my school, activities, hometown, etc . . . Yet even on the Internet I get lazy; I just feel disconnected, and stop commented as frequently on people's journals or in my communities or respond to people's wall comments on Facebook, and just . . . cease to exist, socially, or something, in all realms. There are periods of days where I don't talk to anybody at all, except my family for a few hours, which, after the vast social environment of college, seems like some refined form of socially-depriving torture (since when did I become an extrovert?). It's like seasonal depression, only it isn't in the right season . . .

( . . . and I can tell just by the way I feel this is the case, even as Tiffany has been here and I have been social . . . just in a weird, sort of distant way, which makes me feel terrible . . . )

I should go catch up on my RPing in some of my communities and see if Alice wants to go for a walk again tonight, if it's not storming . . .

Edit (1:01 pm): Comments to Kidnapping Video on YouTube:
shannon6155 (8 hours ago): Oooo.. were watching you. C'mon. lol... knowone helped that girl cause she was a geek..
MurasakiNeko (5 minutes ago): Yeah, I bet she was. I bet she studies a weird language like Japanese and is ridiculously obsessed with Harry Potter. Maybe she actually knows how to spell "no one." What a whackjob.

Mmm, bitchplease . . .