Quizzes and A Survey and Thoughts

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Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need. You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others. You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity. Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships. Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself. At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others. At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

Hmm, sounds like me. Then again, it could be that horoscope-type thing, lol . . . it fits all, or whatever . . .

Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is

Adaiane Menezes

What's Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

Wow . . . didn't really need the butt picture, but whatever . . .

You Were Actually Born Under:

Delicate, timid, and attractive - sometimes you really do act like a bunny. You're very compassionate and protective of those you love, sometimes too protective. Your home is really your castle, and you make sure your home is comfortable and well furnished. You don't like to argue - and you prefer a quiet, peaceful life. You are most compatible with a Goat or a Pig.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest. However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are! Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk. You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Well, the bunny fits, too . . .

Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"I've discovered a whole new way to create a clone! Let's go back to my place and I'll show you."

What's Your Star Wars Pickup Line?

Wow, that's bad.

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

Right . . .





[Snuck out of the house]: No.
[Played spin the bottle]: No.
[Toliet-papered someone’s house/property]: No, though I did help someone purposely decorate a front yard with toilet paper for some Halloween effect once . . .
[Called the cops]: I never have.
[Had a crush on a teacher]: No. I've thought a few were decent-looking, though (lol, Mr. Fiene . . . who didn't?).
[Played poker with money]: I don't play Poker and I refuse to learn because of Neil.
[Liked someone but never told them]: How about . . . always?
[Sat on your glasses and broke them]: I have not done that . . . yet, at least. I've only had them for a year, lol, and, luckily, they're the bendable frame that should resist breakage, lol . . .
[Went camping in your backyard]: Perhaps two summers ago? Amanda (from the lake, Amanda) and I had a kick about doing that for a while when we were younger.
[Got an autograph]: I've been getting "autographs" from people I know in my yearbook all day, lol . . .
[Had a crush on your brother’s friend]: Um, they're all like ten . . . that would be GROSS . . .
[Walked in the rain with no umbrella]: Whenever it last rained. I always forget to take an umbrella, except for Prom, lol . . .
[Told a joke that nobody thought was funny]: Tiffany, today, lol . . .
[Been in a talent show]: I've never really been in a "talent" show. I've showed off my talents, in shows, though, lol . . .
[Starting laughing for no reason at a bad time yeah]: Yeah.
[Worn something your mom didn’t approve of]: Yeah, she seldom does, unless it makes me look like a 1950s prude, lol . . . but she never really makes me change it, and I do okay, I guess . . .
[Been to a nude beach]: No. I reserve my nudity to privacy or Japanese baths. They're cleaner; you can't get sand in those hard-to-reach places, lol . . .
[Cursed in a church/CCD]: No, I don't think I have . . .
[Hacked into someones computer]: Nope. I don't know how, lol; the closest I've gotten is messing up the email service for the computer at the lake by logging on at home, lol . . .
[Been called a slut for kissing someone]: That would require kissing someone . . .
[Burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightener]: Yes, but not recently, thankfully; I haven't burnt myself on my new one, yet, which is nice . . . *crosses fingers and knocks on wood, lol . . . *
[Blackmailed someone]: If you count emotional blackmail, yeah, well, really, I do that too much . . . sorry, guys . . .
[Wanted to be a police officer]: No, I've never really wanted to do that . . .
[Dumped someone yeah]: That would require someone to dump. I've disappointed people I haven't gone out with, though . . .
[Been hit on by someone too old]: Yeah, that nasty 30-year-old man who started out talking about Hiroshima from the messageboard and then found out I was a teenage girl and *gasp* suddenly, he wanted to talk about what I looked like in a thong, instead . . . ick *reiterates blockage of him.*
[Bought lottery tickets]: Nope. I can now, though.
[Made out in a car]: No. That would require making out.
[Looked through your brothers/sister’s stuff]: Yeah, but not immensely . . . just looking for CDs and things . . .
[Said something bad about someone who was near you and they heard]: Well, perhaps in a roundabout way.
[Cried during a movie]: Yeah, I do all the time . . .
[Wanted something you couldn’t have]: Yeah.
[Seen someone shoplift:] No, or at least I didn't recognize it at the time, lol . . . though I do believe I witnessed a car theft, once . . .
[Yelled at your pet:] I used to yell at Megan occasionally, but she is gone now . . . *sigh, pats Megan's memory* . . .
[Bought a thong when the cashier was a guy:] I have not bought a thong. Liz, weren't you going to get me some sexy underwear? Lol . . .
[Gotten seasick]: No, but, then again, I haven't been on the sea for long periods of time.
[Had a stalker]: Not that I'm aware of . . . *gets paranoid.*
[Played a prank on someone that had them really scared yeah]: I jumped out of a closet at my mom when I was really little, and she screamed and dropped all the laundry she was carrying. At first, I thought she was just playing along, because it was so big it looked exaggerated, but then she got kind of mad and I figured out that it had actually worked, lol . . .
[Been embarrassed by your family]: They're really the only people that can do it, lol . . .
[Felt bad about eating meat]: Sometimes, when I stop to think about it.
[Saved a life ]: I don't think I have. I've consoled people in "the depths of dispair," though, so maybe, if they were planning to commit suicide, or something, I would have.
[Protested something]: In my own quiet little way, lol . . . I complain a lot, which is a form of protesting . . . but, no, not with the official signs or anything. I'd like to, though. It's how I plan to die, actually, lol . . .
[Looked at something everyone thought was ugly and said “aww!”]: Yeah, all the time. I have a soft spot for the underdog, always.
[Tried to teach your dog “sick em”]: Nope. I taught her to shake, though. It was the only trick she ever learned, besides, "sit"-- and knowing that "W-A-L-K" meant walk . . . lol . . .
[Screamed in a library]: Nope. I've never even considered it. I have, however, laughed really loudly.
[Made out with a stranger]: Once again, that would require making out.
[Wished a part of you was different]: Yes. All girls in our pressure-full society do, lol . . .
[Asked a guy to dance]: Um . . . does it count if I asked Brock if he wanted me to teach him the dance steps for the musical after he was sick, like way back when? I didn't think so. So, no.
[Laughed so hard you cried]: Quite often. I like that, actually. It gives my abs a workout ^_^
[Went up to a complete stranger and started talking]: Yeah. When there's no one else around, I talk to random people, to make myself feel as if I've got some sort of companion, whether they agree or not, lol . . .
[Been sunburned]: Yes. Ahh, aloe is nice . . .
[Kicked a guy in the nuts for being a perv]: I've threatened. My handbag and parasol made sudden lurches in those directions during the musical backstage. You have to have some sort of defense with those people, lol . . .
[Woke someone up by screaming in their ear]: For some reason, it never works.
[Received an anonymous love letter]: No. That would be cool, actually-- though depressing, actually.
[Had to wear something you hated]: Yeah, but thankfully less and less as I grow older . . .
[Had a really bad haircut:] I hated my haircut until I was aloud to grow it out in 2nd grade. I haven't cut it short since.
[Saw your ex and wanted to kick his ass]: That would require having an ex . . .
[Cursed infront of your parents]: Yes. They curse in front of me, sometimes, which really does shock me, actually. When I was Neil's age, I couldn't even say "stupid" in the house. Our household has regressed, lol . . .
[Been on a commercial on TV]: I was on a Dixie Cream Donuts commercial for Niles, MI and area when I was about 7 or 8 or so . . . Tory got the big highlight in it, though, because she was so *adorable* (*grumbles* JUST because she didn't follow DIRECTIONS, and ate the prop donut, and JUST BECAUSE she looked so cute doing it, lol . . . ).
[Watched a movie that made you miss your ex or someone you want]: Someone I want, yeah.
[Been out of your country]: Yeah: England, Switzerland, and Japan.
[Been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk]: No, or at least they weren't honking at me alone. Someone else hotter was with me.
[Fought with your best friend]: Yeah. I fight with almost all my friends, entirely too much. I'm too impassioned, or something.
[Went to a party where you were the only sober one]: I don't do parties for precisely that reason, lol . . .
[Went on a diet]: I know it would never work.
[Been lost out to sea]: No, but my dad got in a shipwreck in college and ended up washed up on the shore of some beach resort town, and so instead of studying whatever it was that they had to study, he and his friends hung out in the sun on the beach in the Caribbean, lol . . .
[Been told a extremely stupid line]: Yes, every day in Sociology. Ho boy, I'm going to miss Phil next year, lol . . .
[Played truth-or-dare]: Yeah, but not since at least like 6th grade . . . I always preferred "Truth," but it was always retarded, like "Who do you like?" and I would say, "No one," which was true, and so everyone hated playing with me because they thought I was boring or that I was lying or something, lol . . .
[Been dared to make out w/ someone of the same sex]: I haven't been dared, but I've been asked, just sort of randomly (the workings of Phil, again, lol . . . ), and Andrew had that dream about me . . . I still get a kick out of that . . .
[Cut class]: Nope, at least not with some excuse, like a banquet or an award ceremony . . . or being sick, lol . . .
[Cheated on your boy/girl friend]: That would require someone to cheat on.
[Been pulled over by a cop]: Well, a cop pulled up besides me at an intersection (it was Joey's dad, actually, lol . . . ) and told me my lights weren't working, but that wasn't really being pulled over . . .
[Tanned topless]: The most I've done is pull down my shoulder straps to rid myself of those lines . . .
[Been attacked by seagulls]: Yeah; in Cross Country, in 7th grade, when we went to the dunes, Ava threw grapes at the seagulls, but they fell too close to us, and the seagulls went nuts . . .
[Been searched at an airport]: Not profusely, but I've been stopped. My mom's bag was searched completely, once, though.
[Been pants’d]: Yeah, but underwear remained on.
[Stole from a teacher]: I accidentally kept the pen Ms. Burkett let me borrow to fill out my senior survey, and then I lost it . . . oops . . . *feels guilty* . . .
[Gotten lost at the beach/boardwalk]: No.
[Thrown a shoe at someone]: Yes! Woot for Mulan! I also had a shoe thrown at me today . . .
[Broke someone’s heart]: I've told a few people who confessed they like me that I don't like them in "that way" . . . I hope I haven't broken their hearts. That would make me feel much worse . . .
[Sung in the shower]: Yeah, it's the only time people don't slap me for it . . . though occasionally Tory comes in and whines . . .
[Bought something way too expensive]: Yeah; I usually manage to get things just before sales . . .
[Done something really stupid that you still laugh about]: Yeah.
[Been walked in on when you were dressing]: Yeah.
[Ran out of a movie theater cause you were too scared of the movie]: Nope. I don't watch scary movies, though.
[Been kicked out of a mall]: No.
[Been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back]: Yeah. How about this week?
[Got gum stuck in your hair]: Nope, thankfully.
[Spilled your drink on someone on purpose]: Nope.
[Been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one]: I have never received a detention, thankfully ^_^
[Wanted plastic surgery]: I considered doing something to my tummy, once. After all, it was surgery that made it the way it is . . .
[Stood someone up]: No.
[Done something stupid when you were drunk]: I haven't been drunk.
[Slammed into someone while you were checking someone out with your head turned]: Yes.
[Pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up to someone]: Yeah, but it wasn't like a hot man or something.
[Been in a car crash]: Not a serious one, thank God.
[Had a deer jump in front of your car]: Yes. That was scary.
[Threatened someone with a watergun:] Yes, heehee . . . Seth . . . and the Ball boys, countless times.
[Lied to someone and looked them straight in the eye]: No, not seriously. I confess to the occasional white lie, though. There's no need to make people feel bad by bluntness, particularly if it doesn't matter-- like clothing, or something.



I have many signatures in my yearbook, but not nearly as many as I want, yet . . .

Mom is annoyingly nosy.

Mom: *is reading Amy's yearbook signatures.*
Amy: "Mom, don't read those."
Mom: "Oh, but I just want to see who signed it!"
Amy: "You're so nosy. I don't want you to read those."
Mom: "I'm just looking at a few of them!"
Amy: *gives Mom a look and goes over to the computer to get online.*
Amy: *looks back a few minutes later at Mom, who is still perusing through the yearbook front and back, quite intently.*
Mom: "Who's Daryl Fletcher or whatever?"
Amy: "Mom, I told you not to read those. This is why."
Mom: "Oh, but he said he 'always had the biggest thing for you.' Who is this boy?"
Amy: *Sighs.* "Mom."
Mom: *Takes last read, and then puts the yearbook away.*

Yeah, so Daryl (Flicker, not Fletcher; my mom can't read) wrote that he "always had the biggest thing for me." I never had any idea. I thought that was kind of sweet, in a yearbook, end-of-the-year sort of way. I certainly don't know him that well, just from random talks with him every once and a while in middle school, and every morning before Psychology when he says hi to me and asks me how I'm doing, and I usually say, "I'm good," and ask him the same, and by the time we finish, I'm in class, lol . . . He gave me a piece of gum before school the other day. It's funny how these things happen, really.

I saw Mulan II, thanks to Tiffany ^_^ and I was quite satisfied, actually. It wasn't terrible, like most Disney sequels. Sure, it was cheesier and more trite, but that's too be expected-- but it wasn't perfectly DUMB!!! *Rejoices.*

Being at the lake feels nice, and yet really painful. I don't have to leave the lake behind, like I do all the people, and it's nice just to wander around and notice all the things that have been stable for just so many years, even more than most of the people I've known.

I'm really taking this leaving very hard. I'm stressed out as hell, and I still think I was never meant to live this long, long enough to see the end of all of this. I'm started to get obsessions about death that I have to compulse out ("look in the mirror three times in a row, or you're going to crash into the next tree"), and they're quite calm, not the anxious ones I usually get, that make me do it fast so that I don't die.

I still feel stressed out and half-dead over the Alice situation. I don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to deal with anything. I "lack coping mechanisms," or something . . .

Nichole's home now, and Kristina and I have her yearbook and her jacket, which she left in the yearbook room before her accident, for her now.