Bitterness and Pessimism
May. 31st, 2005 09:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tabular_rasaSo I'm still kind of irked.
It doesn't help that I just already WROTE an entry, complete with survey, and it got deleted, including the survey. I don't feel like doing it over again.
It's not hypocrisy. Complaing about something you don't want to do, wishing it another way, and yet still doing it is not hypocrisy. It's called doing something and not liking it. If we only did the things we liked for fear of being hypocrites, we'd be a very fucked-up society.
. . or maybe I'm just justifying things, like Eveline does.
Hmm. I think my Eveline analogy proves true.
I'm really kind of generally pissed at the world right now. There's the obvious, and then Nichole's not really doing any better than she was on Saturday, in fact, she wanted to be knocked out as Kristina and I were leaving today, and her chest tube was in the wrong place and made her in pain all last night. Tiffany never called me back, Erin got off line before I really said much . . . shoot, even the people in my RP community aren't even on . . . and I just have no one to talk to, except wait for Alice to respond to my last comment, since we're talking through livejournal comments instead of IMs even though we're both on, but, go figure.
Is God trying to piss me off at everyone I know in turn so that the separation is easier? It's really following a pattern, now . . .
Alice, you have successfully made me cry.
Here's to hoping June is better . . .
Pssh. Like hoping EVER makes anything come true. It won't. It will suck. It will suck, and I know it.
It doesn't help that I just already WROTE an entry, complete with survey, and it got deleted, including the survey. I don't feel like doing it over again.
It's not hypocrisy. Complaing about something you don't want to do, wishing it another way, and yet still doing it is not hypocrisy. It's called doing something and not liking it. If we only did the things we liked for fear of being hypocrites, we'd be a very fucked-up society.
. . or maybe I'm just justifying things, like Eveline does.
Hmm. I think my Eveline analogy proves true.
I'm really kind of generally pissed at the world right now. There's the obvious, and then Nichole's not really doing any better than she was on Saturday, in fact, she wanted to be knocked out as Kristina and I were leaving today, and her chest tube was in the wrong place and made her in pain all last night. Tiffany never called me back, Erin got off line before I really said much . . . shoot, even the people in my RP community aren't even on . . . and I just have no one to talk to, except wait for Alice to respond to my last comment, since we're talking through livejournal comments instead of IMs even though we're both on, but, go figure.
Is God trying to piss me off at everyone I know in turn so that the separation is easier? It's really following a pattern, now . . .
Alice, you have successfully made me cry.
Here's to hoping June is better . . .
Pssh. Like hoping EVER makes anything come true. It won't. It will suck. It will suck, and I know it.
