Dear Mr. RedxDeath
Mar. 2nd, 2005 04:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tabular_rasaDear Mr. RedXDeath,
Why do you bother, if you think we're so pathetic for caring?
I'm glad that you have a life, even if you do strike me as overwhelmingly negative and I wonder how you can drag yourself through it with some semblance of sanity. I have a life. It is just a pathetic one. That is probably a good word to describe me: Pathetic. Pathetic and pitiful.
Yet I have come to terms with this. Happily pathetic since 6th grade.
Do you even read my journal? Yes, I complain, but complaining is one of my favorite pastimes. I do it to let off steam-- as you clearly do. Yet I also like to think, muse, ponder, and, *gasp* be enthusiastic and exciting about things. Even if they are pathetic, like Harry Potter.
At least I'm happy.
Yet I'm not as pathetic as you say I am. The only drugs I ever take is Nyquil or Dayquil when I've got the flu like I have now. I haven't cried myself to sleep in a very long time. In fact, I have gone to bed on most nights squirming with happiness that I'm currently enjoying my life. My grades are up. I have numerous friends, in school, outside school, online, even overseas. I was just in a musical I had a ton of fun with. I enjoy playing the music in the orchestra. I roleplay Harry Potter to an excessive amount. I also RP two original storylines with some of my friends. I am into politics. I speak Japanese. I like to draw. I like to write. I am working on a novel.
I am an absolute nerd. A geek, sure.
AND I'M HAPPY WITH THAT!!!
I don't want you to misjudge me. I care not because you're so important to me, I care because I like to expand my world, make connections and even friends, and I feel a karmic imbalance if someone walks away with the wrong idea of me. I explain everything.
I realize you won't even read this, or you'll take it the wrong way. That's your misgiving, then.
Just keep in mind that you're lumping us all in as one group. We're not. We're all unique individuals here, as unique as you.
your lives suck because you are useless.
you are useless because you don't think you're important.
you're unimportant because you NEVER TRY to be.
You make me smile, RedxDeath. You make me smile because you're so wrong and so forcefully so. Why?
Will you ever respond to one of my journal posts? I'd like to know if you really care or not.
Why do you bother, if you think we're so pathetic for caring?
I'm glad that you have a life, even if you do strike me as overwhelmingly negative and I wonder how you can drag yourself through it with some semblance of sanity. I have a life. It is just a pathetic one. That is probably a good word to describe me: Pathetic. Pathetic and pitiful.
Yet I have come to terms with this. Happily pathetic since 6th grade.
Do you even read my journal? Yes, I complain, but complaining is one of my favorite pastimes. I do it to let off steam-- as you clearly do. Yet I also like to think, muse, ponder, and, *gasp* be enthusiastic and exciting about things. Even if they are pathetic, like Harry Potter.
At least I'm happy.
Yet I'm not as pathetic as you say I am. The only drugs I ever take is Nyquil or Dayquil when I've got the flu like I have now. I haven't cried myself to sleep in a very long time. In fact, I have gone to bed on most nights squirming with happiness that I'm currently enjoying my life. My grades are up. I have numerous friends, in school, outside school, online, even overseas. I was just in a musical I had a ton of fun with. I enjoy playing the music in the orchestra. I roleplay Harry Potter to an excessive amount. I also RP two original storylines with some of my friends. I am into politics. I speak Japanese. I like to draw. I like to write. I am working on a novel.
I am an absolute nerd. A geek, sure.
AND I'M HAPPY WITH THAT!!!
I don't want you to misjudge me. I care not because you're so important to me, I care because I like to expand my world, make connections and even friends, and I feel a karmic imbalance if someone walks away with the wrong idea of me. I explain everything.
I realize you won't even read this, or you'll take it the wrong way. That's your misgiving, then.
Just keep in mind that you're lumping us all in as one group. We're not. We're all unique individuals here, as unique as you.
your lives suck because you are useless.
you are useless because you don't think you're important.
you're unimportant because you NEVER TRY to be.
You make me smile, RedxDeath. You make me smile because you're so wrong and so forcefully so. Why?
Will you ever respond to one of my journal posts? I'd like to know if you really care or not.
