The Show and Disney Princesses

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So the first night went well ^_^ Thanks to everybody that came! Tiffany, Alice, Robert, Mrs. Hilliard (yea!) . . . it's crazy how many people who would come see me were actually IN it, though, lol . . .

I have a dozen fragrant puckered roses (from my parents) and a very pretty pink lily (from the school, since I'm a senior) in a large basin vase on the kitchen table. They are very beautiful-- but it just reminds me that this is my last show in high school. SAD DAY!!!

I received "Whiniest Character" award. Not to be confused with "Skankiest Character" or "Squeakiest Character," which went to Brigitte and Lauren, respectively, lol . . .

We messed up the wallet scene, the one set piece said "Hoffman House House," and before the show a few pieces of set fell down while the curtain was still closed, but, other than that, things went well. Keep in mind, too, that we were still painting the set a half-hour before the show, man . . . the red letters of "Harmonia Gardens" were painted by me at 5:30 tonight, lol . . .

I love my costumes so much. I really loved this show a lot. I'm going to miss it when it's gone . . . and it's only one more time . . .

. . . and then it's done FOREVER . . .

There were just a few disappointments tonight. I could kind of feel them coming.

1) Winston got sick so Grama and Winston couldn't come.
2) Jamie didn't/couldn't come.
3) Jessica can't come (though, Jessie, if you read this . . . my mom said she'd be more than happy to come along and sit with you, lol . . . I've done that with Mrs. Lent for a couple of Tiffany's shows before . . . )
4) The Fritzes couldn't come because I didn't get them ticket information in time. I mailed them a patron card in the mail, but we got it back from the US Postal Service saying the address was wrong-- even though it wasn't-- but by then it was too late. I'm rather disappointed and sad, obviously . . .
5) No one is coming to see me tomorrow, that I know of.

Still, it will be fun, I hope . . .

Tiffany, I don't know that I'm so fond of this Brett character. He IS hot, I will give you that, and I'm sure he must be nice, considering you hang out with each other, but someone give him some passion or something. He was just . . . blah. Maybe I just annoyed him or something, but he just doesn't seem to be excited to be alive.

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Maybe not the glitter and the tattoos, lol . . . and I actually am not a big fan of video games . . . hmm . . .



You Are Snow White!

Pure and trusting. You are a gentle soul who can get along with just about anyone. Everyone you meet instantly falls in love with you. How can they resist? You have a pure, lovable nature that's irresistable. Just don't trust everyone who comes across your path.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Mrs. Hilliard told me I looked like Snow White tonight. I do have dark hair and very pale skin, and the little red cheeks, etc, and I was wearing a big blue princess dress and a big pink Minnie Mouse bow (so totally the Disney princess! Lol . . . ).

Yet my first reaction to that quiz result is: "No way! Uck! Snow White!" because she's so perfect she ANNOYS me. She's sickly sweet. The domesticity and obsession with cleaning and the animals and the complete unselfishness . . . UCK . . .

I guess I've always resented her. She was too ideal. No one could possibly ever be like her.



Yet other Disney heriones (and not just the princesses-- how come there's this obsession with princesses? Mulan and Megara and Jane and Esmeralda are awesome, too! And how come no one ever include Pocahontas in with them?) have similar qualities, just with flaws.

I can tell it's rather shaped me. In a really weird, pathetic way, it's shaped me. These Disney chicks set the standard for us-- particularly girls born in the late '80s, who were just old enough for the huge wave of movies, one each summer: Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, The Lion King, Pocahontas, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Hercules, Mulan, Tarzan . . . all in a row. We still had Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Alice in Wonderland, and Peter Pan to look back on, too.

Yet . . . look at the heriones, all of them, too-perfect to too-funky-modern. They are all pretty much the same in one idealistic basis: They are dissatisfied with some lot in their life . . . and most of them

I guess that's not too bad. So Disney dictates that women must be beautiful and charming (and are apparently the Holy Grail covered up by the Church, according to The Da Vinci Code, lol . . . )-- the part we all complain about-- but they also must be good and kind, with fully accepting hearts. Sure, female villians are as narrow-minded and malicious as the males (perhaps even more? They get that bitchy aspect to them . . . women fight dirty . . . ), but the girl heriones are required to be perfectly open and accepting-- even when a male in their place would have reserves or prejudices. Does anyone else notice that? John Smith can tout how Pocahontas is a "savage," the Beast is a Beast BECAUSE of his lack of tolerance . . . but all the Disney chicks are open.

There's the obvious play of acceptance in Belle, but it's there with Esmeralda and her sense of justice, Ariel and Pocahontas in their willingness to love a forbidden man, Jane in her wanting to live with the monkeys even when her father and that other dude are afraid of them, Wendy and Alice in their complete ability to accept as real the imaginary worlds into which they fall.

Hmm . . . so maybe Disney can be chauvenistic, but when it comes to personalities, asking girls to have kind, open, and accepting hearts isn't really too bad ^_^

As I said, though, I think I'm affected. When I was little I watched them and thought that was the way girls were supposed to act. You had to be Snow-White nice to everyone, caring and unselfish. So I figured I was a big failure because maybe I wasn't THAT good. So then I tried to be nice to everybody, even people that were weird, like they did with the Beast and Quasimodo. I found a fondness for the forbidden romance above the accepted.

Anyone else do that with Disney? Brainwashed? Lol . . .

The being nice to people thing, though, is the odd part. I try to be nice to everybody. I honestly do. I'd like to think I'm successful at it. Am I? I know I'm too trusting of everybody. My philosophy that there is good probably plays a major role in that, but I guess my upbringing (Disney included, lol . . . ) had a lot to do with it. Also, I hate being hated. I want everyone to like me, pathetic as it may seem. It's really been so disappointing to find that there are actually people that disagree with my highest ideals. I guess as a child I always knew people DISAGREED about things, but it was dumb things, like who was going to pretend to be the mom in the next game of House. I thought EVERYBODY knew you were supposed to treat everybody the same, equally, no matter what age, race, or sex. It was just OBVIOUS. That's what they always told us. That's what all the movies said. So why the hell were there people who DIDN'T think that?

My being-nice thing has made it so hard to stand up for anything. I stand up for it, sure, but never at the sacrifice of the other point of view. If I do shoot it down, I try never to be personal about it. Maybe it's more effective that way-- it's certainly TACTFUL-- but it's harder and it's weird. I never want to offend anybody.

Does that make me weak and impassionate? I can't help but think one can be perfectly capable of being compromising and acqueiscent without losing the purpose.

It's my INFJ-ness, isn't it? Well, lol . . . Martin Luther King, Jr. was supposed to be one of those, too, apparently . . . and Dumbledore, lol . . . though Dumbledore kicks people's asses.





Yeah, yeah, I know, it's a damn quiz result, lol . . . but those things can be pretty accurate sometimes. Though I don't think everyone I meet falls in love with me. Then again-- and I know this sounds whiney-teenage-angsty, but-- very few people actually get to know me. They either see me as shy (or unfriendly; I don't get that one-- it makes me sad that people misinterpret that) or exceedingly crazy and not worth getting to know. Though I'm still NICE to everyone.

People that get to know me seldom seem to turn me away. Maybe this is vain . . . but I really can't name any people with whom I have hung out with that have ended up my enemy, in the long run. Sometimes I rub the wrong way with someone at first, even for a few years, but it always evens out in the end. It's like I have nothing to hide; I have no spite deep within me or dark secrets kept in the dark. I just am . . . pure, unbridled giving. The rule is pretty much: I like you. I see your worth. Okay, so maybe you're obnoxious or a little bitchy or you insult me too much, but that doesn't cancel out your worth. I don't dislike people for one thing. I just dislike the one thing, and like them.

The odd thing is, though, I automatically assume people hate me from the get-go.

Plus some people don't bother to reciprocate. Those who do usually become my friends. Unfortunately, sometimes people go too far-- usually guys, since there's the whole other dimension of hormones there-- and think the same niceness I show to everyone is aimed at them particularly, and then I feel awful having to admit-- if it ever comes up, which it has on occasion-- that no, it wasn't feelings in that way. I'm just NICE.

Does that make me a tease of a bitch on another whole level?

In some ways, I see Lily Evans Potter having this same problem, lol . . .



I think I need to stop being so chatty and go to bed. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore.

Oh-- just one side note, on the topic of Disney princesses and fairy tales: The oldest daughter being the ugly, mean one rule is just awful and entirely untrue. J.K. Rowling's got it right: Lily Evans was older than Petunia; Sirius Black was older than Regulus. Bill is awesome. Was she a first child? Lol . . .

By the way, HAPPY FULL SNOW MOON!!!

Look outside and enjoy its glowing blue beauty!

. . . unless, of course, you're Remus Lupin and need to get to some shelter so you don't kill anyone . . .